Well what a weekend so far. My son got himself in soooo much trouble
and is on the run right now, it is so hard as a parent to handle or
disconnect yourself from this sort of mess. I can't say the thought of
drinking or knocking myself out didn't inter my mind, but when it did
it just made my sick to think i would have to start all over again and
I probly won't make it back this time. I just wanted to be sedated feel
nothing but instead I'm writing and keeping myself busy, It is
something how that bond with your child can drive you crazy even when
there are no where near you I feel such a pull of energy coming out of
me, it is draning. I'm going to a meeting tonite I need to be around
people that understand my mind set. The people my son was involved with
are not nice people and we are handling the overflow from that. Thank
God that I have true friends today and not my drinking friends, I can
do thing honestly now and head on even thou it sucks sometimes but I
have a life of reality now. Well it's been alittle over two years sober
for me and even I can't believe it sometimes but if I wasn't I would
have been dead along time ago.. God must have a purpose for me still
Well hope everyone out there is happy and safe God Bless, Talk to you
guys later ,
Gail (jersey shore area )
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