I'm Back need to start writing Part Two

Well it's been awhile sense I have written, I really need to get back into it.
I'll be coming up on Two years sober soon Oct. 1st what a road to travel.
Newly paved but bumpy at times.
Alot has changed in my life sense i started this, I feel like I've had so may life times. I work in a ICU unit at a hospital and the job is really rewarding being able to help people but at 43 I still don't know exactly what I want.
I'm living with someone now and it has its moments  just dealing with another person at times but I love him he is a great man. My son has come Far in the past 4 months or so he really had to test the waters and I had to stick to TOUGH LOVE which is heart beating when you love someone that much. My children I love more then life I look at them and think they grew in me and they are a part of my being, but all three being sooooooooo different. My husband Well I'm still in a middle of a divorice its like I married a stranger.I still go to meeting but have to step it up some, I'm slowing down for the summer when it comes to work and I get VERY nervous worried and stressed about money but I have to remember the God will provided in those times of need not want. The lessoms that I'm learning about life keep flooding in still everyday but I started froma DEAD shell of a person, Homeless, Penniless, and very sick ( dealth knocked on my door but Faith was there) Thank God I thank he every moment of the day. The first year of soberity was such a different type of pain and mentally tiring, the second year is like a bad dream some times just days floating into eachother. I explain my feeeling at times and people look at me like I'm a nut but ALOT of people know just what I'm talking about.People tell me I'm beautiful all the time but I still see that plane simply sick person in the mirrow most of the time, I'm just tired need a break and some new conversation. I work so hard but just manage to keep my head above water, I have to stop letting the material type people get under my skin. My kids are getting older and that is a depression all in itself but reality sometimes thats the hardest to face (reality). Still to this day I don't know what day or year I walked out on my family but I know today I have the love from my Daughter which is God sent in my eyes and my Sons. I don't see my youngest son that much anymore but the material world has tempority ate him up, ( I miss him) my baby . I have so much in my head latley most of it is unexplainable at this point to even put down on paper still working though it. Well I work grave shift and have to get ready until next time, May the best day of your PAST be the worst day of your FUTURE..
Signed Gail ( From the Jersey Shore )