The people we hurt are in there own addiction of denial that the person they love the most has changed, has problems, everything will be ok tomarro, but tomarro never comes. ( Until we hit bottom ). Everyones bottom is different a addiction can go on for years, until we kill our souls. The demons that we must live with comes along the path of recovery, and they can be just as painful as the addiction. It wasn't that we didn't love our children or spouse we just fill up with self regret and covered it up with the our drug of choice. The people we affected the most we think will come running back , happy for you and resume life with you again. ( not always ) they are scared, not wanting to go back to that life, hurt, and pain, they are crushed and life has been sucked out of them. The addict is not the only one that needs recovery. So being in our own heads sometimes isn't good, sometimes it is really hard to seperate fiction from truth, but it does come back in time. One of the hardest things to do is ask someone (What did I do under My Addiction ) alot of people can't understand not remembering ( BLACKOUTS ) as we know them. Time is a healer, Patiences is a gift. To all that endored the affects of a addict remember Pain turns into Anger, Anger turns into your own addiction.
Gail W
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