October " A feeling"

 

On Oct. 1st, I celebrated via. Phone internet. Every time I want to go get my coin on a Friday Night Avalon either I had to work late or something happened. Now all excited about tomorrow night and my Uncle dies? What the heck. There's a very special lady named Ginger that has my 10yr coin. Can't wait to God gives me a break. don't think I'm going to pray for patients anymore, lol.. I find myself paralyzed with the feeling something is going to happen to my son. No one will sentence him, commit him or save him,,,, Only God and him, I'm watching in time, him die it kills me it took me six years to say NO and mean it, He now has my Grand Daughter my angle joy and a two month boy named Anthony. The hardest part is I don't want to face that my  son is going to die if he doesn't stop using,, The worst part, I CAN"T DO ANYTHING FOR HIM NOW,, HE HAS TO TAKE HIS OWN JOURNEY,,I LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY HEART BUT I DONT LIKE HIM((  I pray. life goes on after 10 years just now you realize some of your problems, Just to find out more later,, Love it.. Please keep Anthony my son in your prayers to spare him from this addict life,,amen

Thank You
Love Too All "The Jersey Shore Girl" xxlloo