This is my son Anthony

I pray for him he has come along way... I'm so proud...

Circles of life CAN be broken...

    Well everything is going pretty good, I resigned from the hospital and went full time with my own business I now have a semi normal life it's hard when your day starts on a monday ends on a monday and you wake up it is still monday...   That is what night shift and doing my own business did for me, I let my meeting go and people well now I'm back at the meetings even started a new step meeting and i go to bed at a normal hour and wake up before everyone and have this peace of coffee my cat my ferrets and me QUIET... what a way to start off the day. I was thinking and talking to my son lately he is coming up on 6 months clean thanks to the grace of God all the tickets and fines and past has caught up with him and it is overwheming, I keep telling him WISH doesn't belong in any vocabulary. I see the circle of life that has formed starting as far back as my moms side of the family with her and my fathers side that was quietly disfunctional, The family circle has been abuse, sex, drugs, additions, anger, rage,abandonment I was telling my son that having a addition and knowing about it and being in recovery is something to be proud of because he can break the circle of family life between My son and I was have broken the circle I did with my kids and he is learning now the hard way and hopefully will share it with his family someday. He is so overwhemed I tried to tell him that trust has to be earned and he just doesn't understand but then I didn't either. It is hard to stay out of my sons program he calls for advice and I tell him the best I can from experence and tell him to call his sponsor...  I pray & pray....   I'm getting RE baptised in two weeks now being a adult I took the choice on my own I didn't have a choice when I was 8-weeks old,,, I totally believe in a higher power because I wouldn't be here if there was nothing, God spared my life for a purpose my general purpose will be revealed to me in his time.. But everyday is a purpose now...   Well God Bless all and please keep my son Anthony B in your prayers Thank you ,,,  Till Later Love Gail the jersey shore area.....http://gailwindsnj1@verizon.net

changing tides

Times are forever changing, or should I say growing. I have made a giant leap into gods well and leave the faith to me and the will to him lately. I'm venchering out on my own with my business, It took along time to work for the great repution that I have on the Cleaning Front, and today people trust in me and believe my honesty. What a switch. I'm at a point in my life where I have to take some chances if not they are going to just slip by again again I don't want to lose no more I want to go one foot forward it has only taken me three years to come up with this decision hahaha...  I was tormenting myself with the fact be my own boss or work for someone... It was driving me crazy so now I'm going to be my own boss with my work and just go with thy will not mine. I have been feeling really good lately, the skies at night and day are unbelieveable and god sent. I like the normal in my life today bedtime, wake up early, remembering what I did yesterday. (haha) even in soberity I was slipping back in the stress and not even remembering what I did yesterday. I have emptied my plate alittle. It is almost like jumping into the void head first knowing God is there and will not let me fall if I do the right and honest things I have to do. My crazy son is still clean and sober going on 5 months now what a mircle. Thank God.. That is a gift beyound my wildest dreams come true and that wouldn't be so if I did change myself. Being sober today just feels normal and the adnormal looks adnormal today. I'm graftiful for today but just for today one day at a time I don't project anything ( that can be my biggest let down ) so for today I thanked god this morning and will all day and that will also be the last words i say tonite god willing. To all Have a great day and hang in there, it is a roller coaster ride indeed...   Love yeahs: Gail from the jersey shore area.