Well everything is going pretty good, I resigned from the hospital and went full time with my own business I now have a semi normal life it's hard when your day starts on a monday ends on a monday and you wake up it is still monday... That is what night shift and doing my own business did for me, I let my meeting go and people well now I'm back at the meetings even started a new step meeting and i go to bed at a normal hour and wake up before everyone and have this peace of coffee my cat my ferrets and me QUIET... what a way to start off the day. I was thinking and talking to my son lately he is coming up on 6 months clean thanks to the grace of God all the tickets and fines and past has caught up with him and it is overwheming, I keep telling him WISH doesn't belong in any vocabulary. I see the circle of life that has formed starting as far back as my moms side of the family with her and my fathers side that was quietly disfunctional, The family circle has been abuse, sex, drugs, additions, anger, rage,abandonment I was telling my son that having a addition and knowing about it and being in recovery is something to be proud of because he can break the circle of family life between My son and I was have broken the circle I did with my kids and he is learning now the hard way and hopefully will share it with his family someday. He is so overwhemed I tried to tell him that trust has to be earned and he just doesn't understand but then I didn't either. It is hard to stay out of my sons program he calls for advice and I tell him the best I can from experence and tell him to call his sponsor... I pray & pray.... I'm getting RE baptised in two weeks now being a adult I took the choice on my own I didn't have a choice when I was 8-weeks old,,, I totally believe in a higher power because I wouldn't be here if there was nothing, God spared my life for a purpose my general purpose will be revealed to me in his time.. But everyday is a purpose now... Well God Bless all and please keep my son Anthony B in your prayers Thank you ,,, Till Later Love Gail the jersey shore area.....http://gailwindsnj1@verizon.net
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