Winter is one of those
times when I seem to reflect on alot of things. I've been sharing about
my son and some things that are going on in my life. I have a job where
I work with alot of really sick people and last night coming home from
work I was looking at the sunset and I'm so grateful that I can
go home and I'm sober and That I do have my health, some people don't
and some may not even make it till Christmas. I had my daughter and son
over for dinner tonite and I was doing that reflecting thing seeing
them when they where just wanting the boxs the toys came in and now
they are all grown up WOW like it happened over night, Thank you God
and AA and all the people that loved me because now I have this new
memory of a relationship with my kids and Life. I may have cold hands
but my heart is warm and even thou sometimes life gets over bearing it
can always get worse if I forget the relationship I had with my family
when I was OUT THERE, I would have nothing right now. The love and
trust I see in my kids now is the best gift I could ever recieve and
something that I wanted for a long time but now I realize it does take
time going on three years of time and I thought or wanted this over
nite. When they say more will be revealed it is all true. It may not be
money and material things but it is a warm and healthy heart and peace
and serenity something that I thought I had in a bar stool but all that
bar stool was , was warm hands and a cold heart a dead mind and
illuisions of serenity... Thank you God for that light that shimes thou
the cracks when you put down the fight and surrender and Let Go And Let
God,,, May you all be Blessed with Peace Love and Serenity
for today and always.. Till later Luv yeah... Gail SJ shore
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