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Thursday, December 22, 2005

Winter Cold Hands Warm Hearts

Winter is one of those times when I seem to reflect on alot of things. I've been sharing about my son and some things that are going on in my life. I have a job where I work with alot of really sick people and last night coming home from work I  was looking at the sunset and I'm so grateful that I can go home and I'm sober and That I do have my health, some people don't and some may not even make it till Christmas. I had my daughter and son over for dinner tonite and I was doing that reflecting thing seeing them when they where just wanting the boxs the toys came in and now they are all grown up WOW like it happened over night, Thank you God and AA and all the people that loved me because now I have this new memory of a relationship with my kids and Life. I may have cold hands but my heart is warm and even thou sometimes life gets over bearing it can always get worse if I forget the relationship I had with my family when I was OUT THERE, I would have nothing right now. The love and trust I see in my kids now is the best gift I could ever recieve and something that I wanted for a long time but now I realize it does take time going on three years of time and I thought or wanted this over nite. When they say more will be revealed it is all true. It may not be money and material things but it is a warm and healthy heart and peace and serenity something that I thought I had in a bar stool but all that bar stool was , was warm hands and a cold heart a dead mind and illuisions of serenity... Thank you God for that light that shimes thou the cracks when you put down the fight and surrender and Let Go And Let God,,,   May you all be Blessed with Peace Love and Serenity for today and always.. Till later Luv yeah... Gail   SJ shore

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