Looking back on 2011, man what a year. So many changes and hurtful sad times. I lost my Mom this past year and opened a whole new area of emotions that I really don't know how to deal with. Relationships should that even be in my future??????? I'm in a relationship now it started off with Joy Love and confusion but it is turning into just a repeat of my own doing. I just may be alone???? I have no friends to hang with or even talk to these days, I don't know when the last time I was truly happy with all in my life. I can't explain others stuff but I know when it affects my emotions then what??? I don't know how I managed to stay sober for over eight years it's amazing, I just want to be happy,,,, on the same page with that special someone. I feel out of link.. I pray for other people maybe I should start praying for myself. Looking back into this journal that is over 8 years old "Man " when is life going to be happy again????
I feel sick, tired, and out of air!!!!!! Please Please Please make 2012 the year for healing or growth that's all I pray for.
Until Later,,, Jersey Shore Girl.. Love yeah.
