Hello, I haven't written in a while but glad to have the time too do it now.. Thank God!!
Lately I have had so many changes going on and just trying to do everything in a organized order That is crazy.. Hahaha.. I'm moving and I know I'm going to Love the location it is PEACE...
I really never realized how organization, change, and looking forward for something would make you think, but for me I has made me see just how far I've came and also how many fears I still have. They say the first Five years ( you get your marbles ) and the next five you (organize them) and the next Five you enjoy them and Thank God (Honestly). I know when I was drinking I hurt allot of people!!! maybe not physically but mentally!
I thought I knew by now how deep other peoples feeling are. The best amends I can do today is stay sober, and work on the emotional part. I have people in my life today that has seen my full blown fits from drinking and you know what they still love me today. There's people I know that just don't understand and forgive me but still blame themselves... If they could only trust fully again today to believe that it wasn't them it was a very sick me and by me being sick with alcohol I made everyone in my path sick!!
So I just Thank God all day when I think of it. And I TRY to be grateful because I really should be..
I'll write more later when I have more time..
God Bless & Good Health
love Gail The Jersey Shore girl
