Well I've been sober for a little over 4 years now and time does heal some hurts. Hurts and hates i thought i would never get over I did in TIME. But some regrets are harder then others. God has a way of keeping certain people in your life for some reason. I never realized why I had a hard time getting into a new relationship and three years later now I know, Somethings take more time then others. They say when you come into the program no relationships for one year they should change that to four years.
Past hurts like loss of a marriage family splitting up and heart break can be cured with a easy fix by replacing it with someone else but in the long run the old wounds never heal and they just carry over into any new relationship that is started. i never really got over the loss of my marriage and home, having to start out all over again after 18 years alone it has not been easy. I still find myself stir crazy in my head sometimes. I pray.. & pray, I know today that this will pass the roller coaster ride they talk about doesn't end in the first year, I think it starts in the fourth. I have the not drinking down but emotional soberity is just important as being sober.
At the shore it gets boring in the winter and meetings get small the ocean gets cold and I still have to learn to overlook those defects and remember the positive like for example where was i 4 1/2 years ago.. With that thought I'm going to start my day all over again ' Thats the great thing about being sober WE CAN START ARE DAY OVER AGAIN AT ANYTIME!!!
Talk to you all later, With Love Gail ( jersey shore girl ).
