Tis the season!! Boy I don't know what is wrong with me, I've been a bitch of bitches. I've been so depressed and don't know why. Maybe it's this time of year, my ex-husband and youngest son haunt my dreams it is crazy. I would have been married going on 20 years but we broke up due to my walking out and drinking at the time.We haven't been together in 4 years but it still feels like I morn him and my past marriage. He is re-married but i don't believe he is happy he did it on the rebound. now I'm planning on getting married and I'm scared to death thinking what if ? Is this the right thing to do or the right time? I'm full of fear which in turn makes me unbearable. I'm trying to snap out of it but my fairy tale wedding is turning into a stormy day already. I'm just stuck. I've been shopping my blues away NOT GOOD I'll need another 12 step program soon lol.Well it feels good just to get this out I just have to snap out of it. Happy Holidays to everyone and KEEP IN GOOD HEALTH.. lOVE YOU ALL GAIL the jersey shore girl... thats another thing the beach is freezing
